22

I'm 5 minutes away from being 1 year older.

This feeling of uncertainty is suddenly grabbing and seizing me from nowhere all of a sudden. During the past year, I made some friends whom I know I may be able to trust and befriend for the rest of my life, I met her whom I know I can walk on with the rest of my life, I still have my family whom I know I can depend on for the rest of my life, I still have my existing friends whom I know I still can joke and fool around with for the rest of my life, I am pursuing a an education/job which I know I will never be sick of for the rest of my life.

Yet, I am still uncertain about everything in life.

I am unsure of where God is going to bring me to in life. I'm uncertain of the unknown possibilities that may come at me any moment. It's just too good to be true to have everything going on smooth sailing in life right now.

People always say, let God be God. Trust in Him and let God do the rest. But, I don't want to let God do everything. I want to be part of my own life story too. Sometimes, I just wish I am less stubborn and more obedient.

And i'm now 3 minutes into 22. With facebook notifications and sms-es coming in. Is this the birthday spirit that's supposed to cheer you up? That people still care and know that you're not just another individual who exist on your birthday?

Whatever it is, I'm definitely feeling better and thank you everyone for cheering me up. I'll keep getting better in life. :)